My TWA Sex Insecurities

This may be one of those way to much information moments, but it took me all day to decide whether or not I should talk about it.  I'm going to talk about it, because I want opinions and input, I want your two cents.

So this morning I had a "moment" with my husband.  I won't get into all of the glory details, but we will just call it a "moment".  

After our "moment" this morning, my husband asked me why didn't I look at him.  I thought about it for a minute and I got really sad.  I know that I glanced at him a few times or another, but it wasn't a stare in your eyes, I Love You type of "moment".  So I felt horrible.  All I could think about was my hair.

Before my Big Chop I had a good length of hair, and any time we were having a "moment," I knew my hair looked great.  It would fall into place from it's wrap, stick to my face or his face, but it still looked good.  Or if I passed on the wrap my hair up for the night, I knew a ponytail would look just as nice.  Not to mention I knew my husband loved my hair.

Well this morning I did not feel so Va Va Va Voom!  My teeny weeny afro was dry, matted, and flat on one side.  And even if I did get up to pick out my fro, it would just get flattened again while in the "moment."  What is a girl to do, I want to look good in the "moment", I'm a little OK with looking messed up afterwards.

And he says of course, "I don't care about that, you are beautiful."  Of course I was like awww, but you really don't have a choice but to say that LOL!!  I knew he meant it!!!  So why can I feel so fly, rocking my curls or afro in the day, knowing I'm the "shut your mouth!"  But this morning, I was so insecure about my short, matted, dry hair while in the "moment" with my husband.  I should still feel fly with my natural self.

So what's your thoughts?